What brought you here? How long have you had this kink? Have you always, or did you have an experience?

[Freesub]

I have absolutely no idea where this kink came from. I've had it since before I knew what a kink was, since my very first sexual feeling. Nothing happened that I know of. It might have just been my overall self-consciousness.

Do you feel like you were fairly self-conscious from the beginning?

I was. I started maturing physically before a lot of girls, but not emotionally. So my boobs started growing and I felt weird about it

Were you physically conscious of your growth? As in, did you wear a bra and never go topless since you had boobs already?
Or were you a bit weirded out and not really sure whether you should be covering them that way or not?

[kathyenf]

Do you feel like you were fairly self-conscious from the beginning?

I was. I started maturing physically before a lot of girls, but not emotionally. So my boobs started growing and I felt weird about it

Were you physically conscious of your growth? As in, did you wear a bra and never go topless since you had boobs already?
Or were you a bit weirded out and not really sure whether you should be covering them that way or not?

I was aware, but not sure if I should talk to my Mom about it, so I didn't wear a bra the first couple of years. I didn't really cover them more than usual. I mostly wore tshirts.

[RaccoonBatteryStaple]

I was. I started maturing physically before a lot of girls, but not emotionally. So my boobs started growing and I felt weird about it

Were you physically conscious of your growth? As in, did you wear a bra and never go topless since you had boobs already?

I was aware, but not sure if I should talk to my Mom about it, so I didn't wear a bra the first couple of years.

This really resonates with me. As I approached puberty my parents told me I could come to them with questions but they were pretty reactive and clearly uncomfortable about it. As a result I never asked questions early when they would have been fairly simple questions about physical things. That meant when more complex questions came up involving things like turn-ons or kinks there was no way I was going to ask about those!

Talking about "feeling weird" though... I spent something close to two years badly wanting my pubic hair to sprout. But shortly after it finally happened I spent the next two years wishing I could go back!

[superevil7]

Seeing both your posts reminds me of my own experience of being too shy to ask about puberty.

When I was in 5th grade, around 10 or 11 years old, was the first time we had sex ed class. They had a lot of detailed photos and slides, explaining all the different parts of a man and a woman. The teacher was explicit about how sperm implanted the egg, and that's how a woman becomes pregnant, and even explained about erections and ejaculation, and periods, and pretty much everything else you could think of. But there was still one thing I was totally confused about. You see, I could not figure out how the sperm got to the egg, in order to make a baby. Years before, my parents had told me that sex was when a man and a woman got naked together, so I was still stuck on that being it. I was way too shy at the time to ask my teacher how the sperm getting to the egg was accomplished however, and everyone else seemed to have gotten it, so I didn't want to single myself out. So even though our teacher asked us every day if anyone had questions, I never asked. The sex ed module lasted for about a week, and I stayed ignorant pretty much the whole time.

It was only a day or two before the sex ed class was supposed to be over that something finally clicked in my head. I still remember it pretty vividly. We were sitting in class, filling out a worksheet, and suddenly the voice in my head said, "The man puts his penis inside the woman's vagina!" and it was like a revelation to me! I'm very thankful that I didn't blurt it out, but I still felt a little embarrassed that it had taken me so long to figure that out, and I checked around me to make sure no one was looking at me. Thankfully, no one was. I still wonder if there are other kids like me that could use more explicit explanations during sex ed. Even when I had sex ed again at an older age, they still never mentioned the actual physical mechanics of how sex works. I still feel like this is something that should be said, rather than leaving it up to the kids to ask embarrassingly.

[Rosey]

I went to a normal British middle school and they showed us an animation of an erect penis sliding into a vagina, it was the least erotic penetration ever, showing a cross section view, but at least it showed the mechanics. I must have been about eleven, maybe ten.

What it didn't show that would have been helpful was the hand of the woman helping the penis in

My parents had already told me but some friends were slightly traumatised by the video at the time

[kathyenf]

Were you physically conscious of your growth? As in, did you wear a bra and never go topless since you had boobs already?

I was aware, but not sure if I should talk to my Mom about it, so I didn't wear a bra the first couple of years.

This really resonates with me. As I approached puberty my parents told me I could come to them with questions but they were pretty reactive and clearly uncomfortable about it. As a result I never asked questions early when they would have been fairly simple questions about physical things. That meant when more complex questions came up involving things like turn-ons or kinks there was no way I was going to ask about those!

Talking about "feeling weird" though... I spent something close to two years badly wanting my pubic hair to sprout. But shortly after it finally happened I spent the next two years wishing I could go back!

Technically, you could go back by shaving, but I'm guessing you did not think about it at that age.

[RaccoonBatteryStaple]

Talking about "feeling weird" though... I spent something close to two years badly wanting my pubic hair to sprout. But shortly after it finally happened I spent the next two years wishing I could go back!

Technically, you could go back by shaving, but I'm guessing you did not think about it at that age.

Before I had it, I wanted my hair to come in mainly because I was on the late bloomer side compared to my peers and I wanted the visual evidence that I'd joined them in puberty when we were in the locker room.

When the first few wisps appeared, I was overjoyed. I loved how they looked and how they felt, and how proud I was when one of the other boys noticed.

And then the frequent involuntary erections started, along with the hormones and weird confusing feelings. So it wasn't that I hated having hair per se, but the hair symbolized everything about puberty (just like before, really, so nothing changed) and I longed for the simpler, more stable, more juvenile me before nature took me by the hand.

I actually did think about cutting my pubes off with scissors since I didn't have a razor yet, but my classmates would have noticed and there would have been no satisfactory way to explain such an action.

[Rosey]

Talking about "feeling weird" though... I spent something close to two years badly wanting my pubic hair to sprout. But shortly after it finally happened I spent the next two years wishing I could go back!

Technically, you could go back by shaving, but I'm guessing you did not think about it at that age.

Before I had it, I wanted my hair to come in mainly because I was on the late bloomer side compared to my peers and I wanted the visual evidence that I'd joined them in puberty when we were in the locker room.

When the first few wisps appeared, I was overjoyed. I loved how they looked and how they felt, and how proud I was when one of the other boys noticed.

And then the frequent involuntary erections started, along with the hormones and weird confusing feelings. So it wasn't that I hated having hair per se, but the hair symbolized everything about puberty (just like before, really, so nothing changed) and I longed for the simpler, more stable, more juvenile me before nature took me by the hand.

I actually did think about cutting my pubes off with scissors since I didn't have a razor yet, but my classmates would have noticed and there would have been no satisfactory way to explain such an action.

It's funny how people react differently, I was a late bloomer and desperate to start visible signs of puberty, but really didn't like the look or feel of pubes so removed them straight away. I was really nervous the first few times though. Shaving cuts! Luckily I had a steady hand.

[Dormouse]

I went to a normal British middle school and they showed us an animation of an erect penis sliding into a vagina, it was the least erotic penetration ever, showing a cross section view, but at least it showed the mechanics. I must have been about eleven, maybe ten.

I remember something like that. UK secondary school. I would have been about 13.

But, the thing was, there was a lot of talk about sex long before then among my classmates, and what they said seemed so ridiculous that I didn't believe it. However, most of it was correct. This might say something about my thoughts about sex in later live.