Moments between me and my older sister growing up

[Lola]

Thank you for everything you've shared! It feels like you're showing me your naked soul ahaha hope you're enjoying that!

Let's discuss a little about what she could have thought when she saw you naked while changing her shoes. She stared at your penis for about ten seconds, gave you a smile and left the room. Reasonable reaction from an open mind girl... But what about your reactions?

A reasonable reaction from you could have been covering your penis with both hands, yell her to leave, dress your self up as fast as you could or at least run away to not be seen. But no! You have just stayed there with your penis on sight asking her to leave. What do you think she had thought about that?

It doesn't matter if you were doing that on purpose or you liked it. What matters is that it was clearly ok for her to see you. You wasn't making a fuss and she liked it! That's the reason of her smile.

You was telling her: you're free to watch.

At Christmas and in the hotel room she was surely trying to catch you naked again. Think about it. Both happen after you had told her:you're free to watch. She wanted to take advantage of her freedom to see you.

And why telling you about her friends coming? She wanted to tell you to be careful because her friends didn't have the right to see you.

"I can see you naked. It's a special permission i have because we're siblings and you love me. I'm proud of that. But be careful! My friends don't have that permission. Is something special, just for me"

I think this is what she has in her mind.
I think at Christmas and in the hotel she tried to see you naked to confirm the special position she has.

"show me your love brother. Let me watch and don't make a fuss"

We can't tell if she's sexually aroused by your nakedness or she likes to see you embarrassed. Unfortunately, probably not.

Anyway this is just my hypothesis... I'm not a phycologist so it's probably worng... But at least it's reasonable. It makes sense.

It seems to me that being naked for your sister is a way to connect with the people she loves. Expecially you that are her younger brother. More then that is hard to say.

Maybe in the deep of her mind she knows that you like to be seen naked and she wants to make you happy by making it happen. She may be not aware of that!

I have a crazy idea! Try to let her hypnotize you again! Let's see what happens. I don't know what will happen. Nothing sexual i'm sure. But she may say something about you being naked. I'm curious. I want a prof of my hypothesis.

She likes to see you naked because is the symbol of the love you have for her. "ES" talks with symbols!

[jllash]

Thank you for everything you've shared! It feels like you're showing me your naked soul ahaha hope you're enjoying that!

Let's discuss a little about what she could have thought when she saw you naked while changing her shoes. She stared at your penis for about ten seconds, gave you a smile and left the room. Reasonable reaction from an open mind girl... But what about your reactions?

A reasonable reaction from you could have been covering your penis with both hands, yell her to leave, dress your self up as fast as you could or at least run away to not be seen. But no! You have just stayed there with your penis on sight asking her to leave. What do you think she had thought about that?

It doesn't matter if you were doing that on purpose or you liked it. What matters is that it was clearly ok for her to see you. You wasn't making a fuss and she liked it! That's the reason of her smile.

Haha thanks for replying and giving your perspective, it's interesting to see what other people think. And yeah I guess in a way I am showing you my naked soul, it's a bit cathartic and I'm glad you appreciate that.

I think a reasonable reaction would have been to cover myself and tell her to leave, and that's basically what I did - except I didn't cover myself successfully. But maybe just that fact is enough to make her feel like it was ok for her to see me.
I think covering with both hands would have been more reasonable, I don't think yelling would have changed anything, and I think dressing myself as fast as I could would have potentially exposed myself (when I thought I was covering myself) so that seems less reasonable. And there was no way to run away, the laundry room layout put her between me and the door, I would have had to ran directly past her to do that.
I think telling her to leave was making a fuss as well.

It seems to me that being naked for your sister is a way to connect with the people she loves. Expecially you that are her younger brother. More then that is hard to say.

Maybe in the deep of her mind she knows that you like to be seen naked and she wants to make you happy by making it happen. She may be not aware of that!

Maybe, that's true. I think part of it is also just seeing people naked is interesting, and so she wants to have that experience if it presents itself, but she won't go too far out of her way to instigate it.

I have a crazy idea! Try to let her hypnotize you again! Let's see what happens. I don't know what will happen. Nothing sexual i'm sure. But she may say something about you being naked. I'm curious. I want a prof of my hypothesis.

She likes to see you naked because is the symbol of the love you have for her. "ES" talks with symbols!

I think the hypnotizing stuff was a brief phase in her early teens, I haven't heard of her doing anything like that since so it would be weird to randomly bring it up and I doubt she'd try to do it again. The spiritual stuff has stuck with her though. We hardly see each other these days as well, almost never alone together, so it's hard to test any hypothesis.

What does '"ES" talks with symbols' mean? I'm unfamiliar with that.

She likes seeing me naked because it's a symbol of my love for her is definitely a unique take and I really hadn't considered it. I don't think that's it in its entirety, but I do think there's some truth to that.

[Lola]

I had fun writing to you and read your replies. Very interesting! I hope you'll write more fictional stories based on your memories. DM me if you wanna talk!

Is hard for me to explain in English what "ES" is.
It's about Freud. Search it. It may be "ID" in English