Hip surgery and exposure

[BABYRYAN2121]

As I have had to tell people on here before. I have very underdeveloped genitals which I feel compelled to keep shaven smooth. I am 2 3/4 inches hard and an inch (or less) soft. And I have very atrophied testicles leaving me looking almost castrated with a tiny tight sac. I needed to have a hip surgery a few months ago. I probably put it off quite a bit longer than I should because of the exposure I knew I would endure. All of the hospital and nursing staff were wonderful but I do know they all know my secret unfortunately. My wife was in the pre op room with me. I was obviously nude under the gown as they preped me for surgery. Well when the are preparing you, each section of the team comes in at a different time to put their initials on your surgery hip. So it was the surgeon, the anesthesiologist and the head nurse I assume. Each came in, had me lift my gown up and turn just a little in the bed so they could initial my hip. It was not easy to keep any modesty at all. Knowing that each of these people and more, were going to see me nude and unconscious in just a few minutes was very embarrassing. and it got worse after surgery. It’s embarrassing knowing that while on the operating table all the men and women in that room can see my bald tiny penis and my tiny shrunken sac. But at least I was under for that. What I was not under for, and what I will have to live with the memory of, is my wife and the young female nurse getting me dressed in the post op room. It was impossible to hold onto the walker bars, and keep my gown from falling off the front and move my legs enough to help them get my underwear on. The nurse bunched my gown up so that it was being held in my hand at the walker. I had to stand there on wobbly legs completely nude other than the gown that was now not being useful at all, holding onto my wife while the nurse carefully pulled my underwear up my legs. I was scared and cold and i have no idea if the drugs made it worse but my genitals were fully shriveled like sucked up inside me. She was very professional but she was staring right at my tiny penis. When she left the room I said to my wife. “She saw everything” and her response will humiliate me forever. She said, “and how do you think that makes me feel?” I said, "embarrassed for me"? And she said no, "embarrassed for both of us". It was brutal. I have had some conversations with my wife since then regarding her own embarrassment about the situation and those did not go well.

[BABYRYAN2121]

for weeks after surgery I couldn't help myself but to bring up the exposure to my wife. When I admitted that was very embarrassed about not only being exposed, but for being exposed as having a tiny penis, but really diddnt understand why she should feel as embarrassed as me. She told me flat out that having another woman see that she is married to a tiny dicked guy is humiliating for her. From that conversation, it made me think that if women think marrying a big dicked guy as a victory or as a prize, or bonus in marriage, I guess my wife feels like its likely that nurse has this over her. Because I am abnormally small.

[Pluto2025]

for weeks after surgery I couldn't help myself but to bring up the exposure to my wife. When I admitted that was very embarrassed about not only being exposed, but for being exposed as having a tiny penis, but really diddnt understand why she should feel as embarrassed as me. She told me flat out that having another woman see that she is married to a tiny dicked guy is humiliating for her. From that conversation, it made me think that if women think marrying a big dicked guy as a victory or as a prize, or bonus in marriage, I guess my wife feels like its likely that nurse has this over her. Because I am abnormally small.

I wonder if the nurses made any comments to your wife about "your situation" . Or was it just a simple giggle or smile?

[BABYRYAN2121]

I wonder if the nurses made any comments to your wife about "your situation" . Or was it just a simple giggle or smile?
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As far as I know, no one said anything directly to her. It is just that she absolutely knows the entire team saw my tiny penis. And the nurse who helped dressed me saw in in front of my wife. Which, for her was her worst moment. It was for me too. Well, it was the worst moment until my wife admitted that both of us should feel humiliated about my small genitals.

[Skylar21]

Well, it was the worst moment until my wife admitted that both of us should feel humiliated about my small genitals.

That was an unfortunate response from your wife. But you have the consolation that you had an intense CFNM experience. We men need to embrace such moments and accept the humiliation such moments can bring. Some humiliation or embarrassment (ENM) helps to keep us in perspective.

[BABYRYAN2121]

Well, it was the worst moment until my wife admitted that both of us should feel humiliated about my small genitals.

That was an unfortunate response from your wife. But you have the consolation that you had an intense CFNM experience. We men need to embrace such moments and accept the humiliation such moments can bring. Some humiliation or embarrassment (ENM) helps to keep us in perspective.

I wouldn't even say it was unfortunate. It was the truth. Knowing she was embarrassed not only for me but for herself, has been on my mind since. And, you are right, that humiliation and embarrassment has made me think about my underdeveloped genitals even more than before.

[Skylar21]

I wouldn't even say it was unfortunate. It was the truth. Knowing she was embarrassed not only for me but for herself, has been on my mind since. And, you are right, that humiliation and embarrassment has made me think about my underdeveloped genitals even more than before.

In my opinion, you could approach your wife and thank her for speaking out. Your task now is to find a way to decrease or eliminate her embarrassment. Thank of her.

You can have a good life regardless of genital size. Wear your humiliation as a badge of honor. It's all good.

[BABYRYAN2121]

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In my opinion, you could approach your wife and thank her for speaking out. Your task now is to find a way to decrease or eliminate her embarrassment. Thank of her.
You can have a good life regardless of genital size. Wear your humiliation as a badge of honor. It's all good.
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I have talked to her about it. I have not thanked her for "speaking out" that seems like it would embarrass me further (something I admit that I secretly need) I have a great life, I think sometimes my tendency for a humiliation fetish comes across as being upset. I am not. But, I do not wear my small penis humiliation like a badge of honor... more like a badge of shame that makes my tiny penis erect

[Skylar21]

I have talked to her about it. I have not thanked her for "speaking out" that seems like it would embarrass me further (something I admit that I secretly need)...

In that case, I think it is important to thank your wife for her comment and opinion. Take the blame and humiliation. Go for it!

[BABYRYAN2121]

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In that case, I think it is important to thank your wife for her comment and opinion. Take the blame and humiliation. Go for it!
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Never thought of actually thanking her for speaking up and pointing out I should be embarrassed. This feels like a kind of setting the small penis karma straight thing. I should make sure she knows I am humiliated that she is embarrassed about my lack of size.