Sneak Peek - Classroom ENM
Posted: Wed Jan 25, 2023 6:11 am
The most vivid memory I have of CFNM embarrassment came when I was 10 years old in the late 1970s. I was in Grade 6 and was best friends with a boy called Kai who, for a brief while, was actually the star of a low-budget kids series called "Dragon Run", a rather silly show broadcast on public-access television across our local region. Being the star of the show Kai received a considerable amount of screen-time and, as a result of this, was quite well-known in the area - he was one of the most popular boys in school and it was fair to say numerous girls in our year had intense crushes on him. It wasn't surprising, as Kai was extremely attractive and well put-together; he had wavy, chestnut-brown hair which fell cheekily over his brow, causing him to regularly flick it back out of his eyes. He was tall, sporty and fit with a toned, athletic body and was one of these kids who just seemed to excel in any physical activity he put his mind to. I'm not ashamed to say I was slightly jealous, but Kai was too considerate to attract anything other than admiration and friendship. "Dragon Run" was broadcast every week with filming taking place on the weekends prior to airing, the premise of the show being that Kai was a secret Ninja of sorts helping to solve problems around the local area. I remember one of the funniest episodes was him confronting a local garbage truck operator for dumping trash on the local sports fields, giving the evil boss a flying spinning kick to teach him a lesson! The show had been running for roughly 3 months and we were approaching the finale, which was to be aired the week after school finished for the year. Everyone was looking forward to it and had become quite invested in Kai's journey - it was bittersweet for me, because I knew that once Grade 6 had finished Kai and his family would be packing up and moving to a different state, so although I was eager to see the finale I couldn't help but be sad that it would also probably be the last time I saw Kai. We had built up an incredible friendship over the past few years and we talked to each other about anything and everything, fully trusting each other with our deepest, darkest secrets. Little did I know that one of his most guarded secrets would be revealed in front of our entire class in our last week of school...
I arrived at school on the Monday of the final week eager to finish but also excited at the fact that we would most likely just be goofing off and playing games for the remainder of our time there. I immediately found my regular group of friends and started playing handball, and although it was only 8.30 in the morning I could see the storm clouds gathering in the distance before the first splodges of rain started falling. As the rain got heavier and we ran into the library to shelter I saw Kai sat by himself reading what looked to be an introductory anatomy textbook. I remember thinking to myself how strange this was as Kai was not the most academic of students and never really showed any interest in reading, other than comics! I sat down next to him as he looked over and gave me a half-hearted smile.
"Hey dude, what's up? How come you weren't playing handball?" I asked.
"Um...I dunno, I'm not really in the mood" he quietly responded.
"Oh...is everything ok?"
"Um...yeah. Sort of..." he softly offered.
"Come on, dude. Tell. And how come you're reading that stuff, it's like, a book on bodies!"
"Man...I dunno how to say it...ummm...this weekend in filming...they made me do a nude scene" he said, barely louder than a whisper as his eyes darted around to make sure nobody was listening.
I was taken aback. A nude scene! How could they do that?!
"Well...like...did you show everything?" I gently asked.
"Yeah! Like, totally full frontal, totally naked!" he stuttered, flushing red at the mere mention of it.
I'd never seen Kai naked, nor had he seen me, but in my naivety I didn't think he'd have anything to be embarrassed about. Although he was physically impressive and athletic, truth be told he was actually quite a bashful and prudish kid, and as far as I knew had never allowed anyone to see him naked or, in turn, seen anyone else naked. You have to remember that this was back in the 70s, so the chance of a 10 year old boy getting hold of porn was almost unheard of. Apparently, the director had justified the naked scene on the basis that it would generate a little bit of local controversy, hence enhancing both the director's profile as well as Kai's. Kai's parents were typical helicopter parents, desperate for their son to be a star, and apparently gave the go-ahead for the nude scene on the basis that there was nothing untoward about a 10 year old boy being seen naked, the resulting fame would be well worth any initial controversy anyway. Kai's embarrassment was a secondary consideration to fame and fortune.
Kai went on to describe how, at the very start of this particular episode, he was investigating a toxic waste dump run by an evil organisation on the outskirts of town, and during his secret investigation his character had accidently knocked over a barrel of toxic chemicals which had splashed all over his clothes. In his panic, his character stripped everything off in the middle of an empty warehouse, the humour lying in the fact that he now had to wear a discarded burlap sack all the way back to town before anyone could see him. For a good 5-10 seconds of screen time Kai stood there as naked as the day he was born pondering what to do next, before spotting the sack, ripping a few holes in it with his super ninja strength, and putting it on for the sprint back. By setting up his 'accident' at the very start of the episode the plot then cantered around Kai's character's trials and tribulations of getting back into town quietly, unseen by prying eyes until he can make it home and get dressed. By the time Kai had finished describing it I could tell the impending airing of the show was totally freaking him out, so I made an attempt to calm him down:
"Dude, don't worry though. By the time it's on TV school will have finished and you'll be moving away. And nobody will see it outside this town anyway! So don't worry, man. It'll be cool" I optimistically reasoned. Kai just nodded, still looking down at the anatomy textbook.
"Kai...how come you're reading that stuff?" I quizzically asked.
"Um...well...when I finished the scene and went to get my clothes back on I heard one of the crew members say something..." he whispered back.
"...well? What did they say?" I gently asked
"Dude, you've gotta promise not to tell ANYONE, ok?!" Kai begged, the redness flushing over his face again.
"Ok, ok, I promise. What did they say?" I softly responded.
"No, I'm serious. Nobody from here can know about this, ok? Promise!" he desperately demanded.
"Ok, I swear on my Mother's life I won't say anything to anyone. Ok?! Now tell!" I implored.
"Um...ok. So, as I was walking off the stage I went behind some boxes to put my clothes back on and a couple of the crew members walked over and stood in front. I don't think they knew I was there. One of them started laughing and said to the other one that...like...that they thought I had a micropenis" he bashfully whispered, eyes darting around the library again.
"Dude, what the fuck does that mean?!" I chuckled, unaware of such a term
"Well..this book says it means like I have a super small dick!" Kai shot back, apparently annoyed that I'd laughed
"How big is it, dude? Like, I don't wanna see it...but...like how many centimetres is it?" I flatly responded as I pulled my ruler out of my bag.
Kai simply stared at the ruler, internally debating whether or not to reveal the truth of how small his dick was. After a good 10 seconds, he reached out and pointed to a mark on the ruler. It was in between the 1 and 2cm mark. I didn't dare to react in any other way than nodding slightly. We sat there in awkward silence for a good few seconds. Kai looked me square in the eyes;
"...is...like...is yours bigger than that, dude?" Kai desperately inquired. "Tell the truth, dude, please!"
I nodded, before placing my finger on the 10cm mark, which was a slight exaggeration but not far from the truth. Kai threw his hands up.
"No way! Everyone's gonna see it, dude! I never would have agreed to do it if I knew it was tiny!" Kai breathlessly uttered in barely-restrained panic.
"Dude, don't worry! You'll be long gone before anyone from here sees! And nobody in your new town will know, anyway. It's not like they can even get this channel where they are! And anyway, it'll probably grow when you get older as well" I reasoned back. This seemed to do the trick, as I saw the panic and redness on Kai's face start to dissipate.
"You think so? Like..it'll get bigger?"
"For sure, dude. Everyone goes through growth spurts, don't worry about it, bro" I reasoned. Kai smiled and nodded, seemingly relieved that his best friend was there for him.
"Come on, man. If you start acting like this and reading stuff about dicks people are going to think you're weird! Just forget about it, nobody here will ever find out. Trust me, I'll never tell anyone, ok?" I gently explained, injecting a bit of humour into it and encouraging him to relax.
Kai nodded and shut the book as we stood up to go to class. Just as we stood up the bell rang and we braved the rain to run from the library to our classroom. As we got inside our other 20 or so classmates slowly filed in, most of them slightly soggy from the heavy rain as Mrs. Dunne welcomed everyone into class and told us to take our seats. We sat down, got out our pens and paper and started work. Over the next couple of hours the rain intensified outside and the storm which was rolling in while we were playing handball had now firmly taken hold. It was at the point of recess that Mrs. Dunne explained that we'd be remaining inside for the rest of the day, and during lunch we'd have the choice to either play some games or watch the television. Recess came and went with a number of us playing Twister and other board games, however, the general rowdiness of the class and cramped conditions lead to Mrs. Dunne giving us instructions that during the lunch break we'd only be permitted to watch the television.
Lunch time rolled around and, as the bell rang, we all got up from our seats and went into the storeroom to get our lunches from our bags. As we came back in we could see that Mrs. Dunne had rolled the big television set into the middle of the room, opposite the main entrance to the door making it impossible to see the screen when entering the room or from Mrs. Dunne's desk. We all sat in front of the television as Mrs. Dunne switched it on and started flicking through the channels to see if there was anything suitable to watch, the 10 or so girls huddled around the screen in front and the boys coalescing at the back, apparently more interested in having thumb wars and dead-arm competitions. Almost every channel that she cycled through was either static, news or boring soap operas far outside the scope of interest for 10 year old kids. This went on for a few minutes as all the children started getting bored and fidgeting, and it was at this point that Kai actually put his hand up and asked to go to the toilet. Mrs. Dunne gave him permission as he stood up and left the room. Almost as soon as Kai had left the room Mrs. Dunne finally landed on a channel with a clear signal, a couple of seconds passing before an announcement came on:
"Special announcement: due to unforeseen scheduling conflicts we will be test-airing the final episode of Dragon Run. Enjoy the program"
"Yesss! We get to see the final early!" Kailey excitedly squealed from the front row, one of the girls known to have a major crush on Kai. Kailey was definitely the prettiest girl in the class, almost always wearing long, blonde pigtails and lip gloss. She never missed an opportunity to flirt with Kai, who interestingly never seemed to reciprocate her affection.
"Sweet, this is awesome!" Gabby chimed in, another girl who swooned over Kai. Gabby was definitely the nerd of the class, sporting a mouthful of braces and a faceful of freckles, never seen without her compendium of notes and papers.
"Is Kai even here?" Michelle asked as she turned around and looked for him.
"Nah, he's gone to the bathroom" Kailey responded quickly, seemingly eager to get everyone to be quiet so she could oogle her crush in peace. I knew I had to say something.
"Oh, this sucks. I wanted to watch this with my folks on the weekend, can we switch to something else?" I strongly countered, trying my best to preserve Kai's modesty. The entire class booed me;
"Shut up, we get to see it before anyone else does!" Kailey shot back.
"Yeah, we wanna watch it. Miss, please keep it on!" Brianna, one of the younger girls in the class at 9 years old, also pleaded. Mrs. Dunne nodded.
"Class, this is what we're watching. And besides, there's nothing else on the other channels. Now, I expect all of you to watch this quietly or I'll switch it off immediately. I have a lot of marking to do before the end of the year and I don't want to be disturbed. Do I make myself clear?"
The entire class nodded as the theme music kicked in and Mrs. Dunne sat behind her desk over the other side of the room, unable to see anything other than the back of the television. The theme music stopped and the show began, the first scene being Kai sneaking around the side of the warehouse and breaking in through a semi-opened window.
"Omg, he looks so cute dressed like that" I overheard Kailey whisper to one of the other girls. A few of the girls heard this and just nodded, their eyes fixed on the television.
There was still no sign of Kai who had been out of class now for around 3 minutes. He must have been taking the long way around to the toilets to avoid the pouring rain. I racked my brain as to what to do. Should I get up and shut the TV off? Should I cause a scene and distract everyone? Should I run out and warn Kai? I didn't know what to do, and in my panic I hadn't realised just how early on in the episode the nude scene was. Just as Kai's character had stepped down from the window he'd tripped on the barrel of toxic waste with the chemicals splashing all over him. A few of the girls giggled at his reaction as the special-effect smoke started to rise from his clothes, as if to signal the chemicals were starting to eat through the fabric. Then, it started. Firstly, we all saw Kai rip his top off.
"Oooooh, look at Mr. Universe!" Brianna mockingly yet excitedly whispered. The rest of the girls giggled nervously, eager to let each other know how much they were enjoying it but not wanting to attract the attention of Mrs. Dunne.
"He's so hot, oh, my God" Michelle giddily whispered to Kailey, who just rapidly nodded in agreement.
One of the girls, Abby, started to look quite concerned at where this was going - instead of the giddy excitement the rest of the girls were exhibiting she looked exceedingly worried. In contrast to most of the other girls Abby was quite plain and dumpy, her dark brown hair styled in an outdated bob and large, thick rimmed glasses perched atop a snub nose. I got the distinct impression that she had a heightened sense of empathy for those at risk of bullying as she seemed to be a victim of it herself.
"It's not polite to talk about someone behind their back, you know" she quietly chastised. Michelle and Brianna just turned around to look at her and, almost simultaneously, rolled their eyes.
On the screen, Kai threw his top on the ground as the smoke continued to rise from his jeans, desperately patting them down to try and remedy the effects of the chemicals. As he jumped around like a maniac the girls continued giggling audibly, causing Mrs. Dunno to look up from her marking.
"Girls, this is your first warning. Watch quietly, do you understand?" Mrs. Dunne sternly ordered from across the room. All the girls nodded as they sat bolt upright, all sharing silent smirks with each other as Kai continued jumping up and down. Then, in one smooth move, as he jumped up he tore his jeans off and threw them across the warehouse.
The girls froze, their smirks replaced with open-mouthed shock. Kai still had his underwear on as he hopped around slightly less rapidly, the smoke still rising from the fabric as he continued patting his groin and butt to presumably stop the chemicals from eating through. I noticed that Kailey had raised her hands to her mouth as she stared wide-eyed at the screen, not daring to make a noise lest Mrs. Dunne send her outside. Gabby's wide grin fully revealed her braces as she giddily glanced around at the other girls, her body convulsing with stifled giggles. Brianna, being the youngest and smallest of the girls, tried to lean in closer to the screen, pushing one of the other girls slightly out of the way so as she could get a better view. She made no attempt to look at anything other than the screen, laser-focused on her young classmate in his underwear revealing himself on the television. Suddenly, the door swung open and Kai entered the room having returned from the bathroom, the girls barely registering that he was there in case they missed what they suspected was going to happen on the screen. Kai, surprised at the quietness of the room, inquisitively turned to Mrs. Dunne:
"Miss, what are we watching?" he asked suspiciously.
"Dragon Run. Your final episode, young man. The class is getting a sneak peek! Now go and take a seat" Mrs. Dunne warmly responded, under the impression that he would be flattered that the entire class were so interested in his acting as opposed to what was actually happening on-screen. I saw the colour drain from him as he turned to look at me, a look of total shock and panic etched across his face. His body language immediately shifted from one of carefree confidence to unbridled fear and anxiety. Just as he was about to open his mouth, it happened.
On the screen Kai gave one last jump and ripped his underwear off, throwing them behind him as he stood motionless in the middle of the warehouse. The camera left nothing to the imagination as Kai stood perfectly still, acting in sublime relief at finally removing his acid-ridden clothing. He was right - micropenis was almost too small a description of what afflicted him. His puny, uncircumcised penis extended no more than a single centimetre away from his body, his testicles barely visible and, debatably, not even descended. The most jarring contradiction of the entire scene was not just that his supple, athletic and well-developed body was in stark contrast to his infantile penis, but that he seemed so comfortable in revealing what would be, to most boys, a source of extreme shame and embarrassment. It really came across in his acting that he'd honestly suspected nothing was amiss or irregular with his development - on the contrary it seemed that he was intensely proud of his body and unafraid to reveal it in all its glory. Little did he know that "glorious" was perhaps the least apt description for his extremely underdeveloped genitals. For a few painful seconds of silence the entire class sat there, trying to process what they'd just seen. Even the boys at the back stared at the screen in total shock. The colour, once drained from Kai's face, suddenly returned with vigour and the poor boy flushed as red as a beetroot as he stood there trembling, not knowing where to go or what to say. The girls stared at the screen with a mixture of shock, excitement and lust etched in their faces, the impact of the moment almost too much for them to take in - all the girls, that is, except for Abby. Abby sat there with her hands clasped over her mouth, her eyes betraying the hurt and empathy she must have been feeling for Kai. A few seconds passed until the silence was broken by, of all people, little Brianna.
"It's smaller than this!" she whispered loudly enough to be heard by all the girls in the front, holding up a pencil and pointing to the tiny eraser on the end. All the girls turned in silence to look, before erupting into venomous laughter. Kailey looked straight at Kai, wide-eyed with a toothy grin, and pointed to somewhere outside the classroom:
"I think you came into the wrong class, Kai, the Kindergarten is back there" she chortled.
"Kailey, come on, that's mean. He shouldn't be in Kindergarten. He should be in class 1CM!" Gabby tittered, her face red from both excitement and restraining her urge to cackle in the poor boy's face.
"Huh? I don't get it?" Michelle queried, tilting her head to one said as she looked at Gabby.
"Oh, my God, Shell. CM. C. M. Like, you know, centimetre. So, like, 1 centimetre, duh!" Gabby spat back while pointing directly at Kai's crotch, seemingly annoyed at having to explain what she considered a pretty obvious joke. Michelle looked offended and desperately tried to play it off:
"Oh, no, I mean I knew what you meant! I knew it meant centimetres! I was saying, like, I don't get how it's so small. Like, my little brother is 2 and even his is bigger than that" she clumsily spluttered, as the other girls simply smirked at her trying to wriggle her way out of her own embarrassment. Kailey took the opportunity to join in again.
"Shell, it doesn't matter if you have a small brain. There's someone in here with something even tinier" she playfully purred, simultaneously managing to embarrass both Michelle and Kai. All the girls cracked up again, with the obvious exception of Abby, who remained disturbed by the entire scene:
"Guys, come on. That's enough, he's never done anything to you! Leave him alone!" she pleaded, barely audibly, as if the trauma Kai was feeling was somehow being channelled through her. Mrs. Dunne looked up from her desk.
"Girls, enough. Final warning. No more noise. Kai, go and sit down" she firmly ordered, completely unaware of what was playing on the television and too far away to understand the context of the girls' taunts. Kai, as red as a tomato, robotically shuffled over and sat down next to me staring at the floor. By this stage the scene had moved on and Kai was now wearing the burlap sack as he searched for a way out of the warehouse. Kyle, one of the boys behind us and well-known as the class tough-guy reached over and prodded Kai as the girls turned around to face him:
"Don't worry, dude. If you lose your clothes again you can use this to cover up" he taunted as he handed the humiliated boy a small, folded-up Post-It note no bigger than a few centimetres. Kai simply looked up and took it off him in silence, as if he knew there was no point arguing or fighting back. The whole class knew he had an extreme case of micropenis and nothing he could say or do would change that. As Kai went to put the Post-It note on the floor Michelle saw an opportunity to regain some of her pride and leant over the other girls to pass a small pen lid to him:
"Here you go, Kai. I know it's probably too big but at least if you lose your pants again it'll cover everything up!" she mockingly jeered, as Kai held his hand out and let her drop the pen lid into his palm. The girls all stifled embarrassed laughs as they continued whispering amongst each other, not taking their eyes off Kai. Abby spoke up again:
"You guys are bitches, what's he ever done to you? He can't help it, it's not even that small!". Kailey rolled her eyes again:
"Abby, shut up, as if it isn't. And dude, honestly, why did you film that? You seriously have the tiniest dick ever!" she viciously scolded, as if to purge the anger she felt inside at having a crush on Kai for so long and having those feelings destroyed in 10 seconds at the revelation of his incredibly small boyhood. The rest of the girls turned to her in shock, eyes bugging and mouths agape as if they couldn't believe what they'd just heard.
"Kailey, that's soooo harsh!" Gabby giggled through snorts of laughter. Kailey just turned to her and shrugged;
"It's the truth. I mean, come on. You can't even call that a dick, it looks more like a pimple!" she nonchalantly responded.
"What should we call it then?" Gabby asked in earnest, as if to challenge Kailey to provide a reasonable definition of something rarely seen.
"Oi, babydick, everyone's gonna find out after this you know, right?" hissed Brent, one of the boys at the back.
"Babydick! Oh, my God. That's sooooo your new nickname, dude!" Gabby giddily added, as she turned to Brianna.
"That's such a good name for him, it's like the lamest band name ever! Lil' Babydick!" Kailey guffawed, relishing the opportunity to stick the knife in one more time.
"Yeah, BD! BD, BD, BD!" Brianna added softly, as if to start a chant. The rest of the girls quietly started repeating "BD, BD, BD" barely above the level of a whisper. Mrs. Dunne became suspicious again:
"Girls, why are you turning around? Is there something you'd like to share with everyone?" she queried. The girls turned around in silence but with huge, cheeky grins on all their faces.
"Well, who's going to answer me?" Mrs. Dunne demanded, her voice slightly raised.
"Oh, it's nothing Miss. Just a little joke" Gabby eventually replied, emphasising the word "little".
"Yeah Miss. It's nothing big" Michelle chimed in, The rest of the girls were starting to go red from containing their chortling.
"Nothing big? It certainly seems like something big, madam!" Mrs. Dunne countered, not exactly angry but rather bemused with the cryptic responses.
"Oh, it's definitely nothing big, Miss. We were just having a tiny chat" Kailey playfully yet calmly offered, further pushing the girls to the brink of outright cackling. Mrs. Dunno looked sceptical, but acquiesced.
"But we'll be quiet now, Miss. We're not babies" Brianna smarmily chimed in with.
"Well, let's lower the volume and face the front please girls. I want you all to watch the rest of the show in silence, alright? We don't want you all going into year 7 with an underdeveloped sense of maturity, do we?"
The girls all stifled another giggle as they bit their lips and dared not look at each other. Michelle affirmed Mrs. Dunne's instructions:
"Of course not, Miss. We don't want anything to be underdeveloped!"
Mrs. Dunne went and sat back down as the class started to settle down and watch the rest of the episode. Every now and then the girls would sneak a peek at Kai and begin excitedly whispering to each other - Kai simply sat there stony-faced as he watched himself run around the town covered only by a burlap sack, dreading the moment when the episode finished and the reality of the entire school finding out about his micropenis while he was still in town sank in. I noticed Abby looking at him from across the room and, when their eyes met, mouthing "I'm sorry!" This just seemed to upset Kai more. I tried to reason with him:
"Sorry, dude. I tried to get them to turn it off but they wouldn't. You only have a week left before you never have to see anyone from here again, ok?" I softly whispered as I patted his back. He just nodded silently and gave me a small smile. And so, for the next 20 minutes or so, we sat there silently watching the rest of the show. About 5 minutes before lunch ended the rain stopped, the clouds parted and slivers of sunlight began to break through the haze. Normally, this would be cause for celebration for Kai, but he knew that every minute spent outside the classroom meant the uncovering of his secret shame. The episode ended and the credits began to roll as Mrs. Dunne walked over and started to wheel the television back into the storeroom.
"Ok, class. For the remainder of the day you can play outside. Come back in at 3pm to get your bags!" Mrs. Dunne instructed as everyone stood up.
Kai and I stood up along with everyone else and waited for the room to clear. The girls made a beeline for the door, cheekily chanting "BD, BD, BD" on their way past Kai, whereas the boys simply walked by laughing. The room emptied with the exception of myself, Kai and, curiously, Abby. She walked over to us.
"Kai, those girls are real bitches. Don't worry about them, I won't say anything to anyone, ok?" she warmly offered, her eyes full of compassion and sincerity. You could tell she really felt bad for the poor boy, and was doing her best to support him. Kai just nodded and smiled back.
"And anyway, I think it looks cute. Like a little earring" she added with a sympathetic smile.
Kai didn't smile this time. He just nodded, blankly, as it dawned on Abby what she'd just said.
"Oh...I mean...Sorry, I didn't mean little...I just meant...I was trying to say 'good things come in small packages'" she managed to stammer out in desperation, eager to avoid embarrassing him any further. It dawned on her almost immediately that she'd said "small". Kai just stared at her - not with anger, but with resignation that he would be defined, for the next week at least, as nothing more than a boy with an extraordinarily small dick.
"Not small! Sorry! I don't know what I'm trying to say, I just wanted to let you know it looks...you know...cute and...umm....yeah, cute! And even though it's...um....kinda...like not as big...or as long...or...like" she continued desperately stammering her way through a painful apology, until she was interrupted by a voice from the window. It was Kailey eavesdropping.
"You're trying to say 'he has a babydick!'" came Kailey's inevitable insult, which would be echoed throughout the school for the final week. Kai looked crushed.
"Piss off! Bitch!" Abby retorted as she moved closer and gave Kai a big hug.
"Don't listen to her, I'll be your friend even if you do have...well...you know. I won't say it" Abby said as gently as she could. Kai just nodded and smiled back, finally accepting that Abby was just trying to help him feel a modicum of warmth after what must have been the most embarrassing moment of his life so far.
And with that, we all walked out to the playground, ready to support Kai through what would become the most humiliating week of his young life.
I arrived at school on the Monday of the final week eager to finish but also excited at the fact that we would most likely just be goofing off and playing games for the remainder of our time there. I immediately found my regular group of friends and started playing handball, and although it was only 8.30 in the morning I could see the storm clouds gathering in the distance before the first splodges of rain started falling. As the rain got heavier and we ran into the library to shelter I saw Kai sat by himself reading what looked to be an introductory anatomy textbook. I remember thinking to myself how strange this was as Kai was not the most academic of students and never really showed any interest in reading, other than comics! I sat down next to him as he looked over and gave me a half-hearted smile.
"Hey dude, what's up? How come you weren't playing handball?" I asked.
"Um...I dunno, I'm not really in the mood" he quietly responded.
"Oh...is everything ok?"
"Um...yeah. Sort of..." he softly offered.
"Come on, dude. Tell. And how come you're reading that stuff, it's like, a book on bodies!"
"Man...I dunno how to say it...ummm...this weekend in filming...they made me do a nude scene" he said, barely louder than a whisper as his eyes darted around to make sure nobody was listening.
I was taken aback. A nude scene! How could they do that?!
"Well...like...did you show everything?" I gently asked.
"Yeah! Like, totally full frontal, totally naked!" he stuttered, flushing red at the mere mention of it.
I'd never seen Kai naked, nor had he seen me, but in my naivety I didn't think he'd have anything to be embarrassed about. Although he was physically impressive and athletic, truth be told he was actually quite a bashful and prudish kid, and as far as I knew had never allowed anyone to see him naked or, in turn, seen anyone else naked. You have to remember that this was back in the 70s, so the chance of a 10 year old boy getting hold of porn was almost unheard of. Apparently, the director had justified the naked scene on the basis that it would generate a little bit of local controversy, hence enhancing both the director's profile as well as Kai's. Kai's parents were typical helicopter parents, desperate for their son to be a star, and apparently gave the go-ahead for the nude scene on the basis that there was nothing untoward about a 10 year old boy being seen naked, the resulting fame would be well worth any initial controversy anyway. Kai's embarrassment was a secondary consideration to fame and fortune.
Kai went on to describe how, at the very start of this particular episode, he was investigating a toxic waste dump run by an evil organisation on the outskirts of town, and during his secret investigation his character had accidently knocked over a barrel of toxic chemicals which had splashed all over his clothes. In his panic, his character stripped everything off in the middle of an empty warehouse, the humour lying in the fact that he now had to wear a discarded burlap sack all the way back to town before anyone could see him. For a good 5-10 seconds of screen time Kai stood there as naked as the day he was born pondering what to do next, before spotting the sack, ripping a few holes in it with his super ninja strength, and putting it on for the sprint back. By setting up his 'accident' at the very start of the episode the plot then cantered around Kai's character's trials and tribulations of getting back into town quietly, unseen by prying eyes until he can make it home and get dressed. By the time Kai had finished describing it I could tell the impending airing of the show was totally freaking him out, so I made an attempt to calm him down:
"Dude, don't worry though. By the time it's on TV school will have finished and you'll be moving away. And nobody will see it outside this town anyway! So don't worry, man. It'll be cool" I optimistically reasoned. Kai just nodded, still looking down at the anatomy textbook.
"Kai...how come you're reading that stuff?" I quizzically asked.
"Um...well...when I finished the scene and went to get my clothes back on I heard one of the crew members say something..." he whispered back.
"...well? What did they say?" I gently asked
"Dude, you've gotta promise not to tell ANYONE, ok?!" Kai begged, the redness flushing over his face again.
"Ok, ok, I promise. What did they say?" I softly responded.
"No, I'm serious. Nobody from here can know about this, ok? Promise!" he desperately demanded.
"Ok, I swear on my Mother's life I won't say anything to anyone. Ok?! Now tell!" I implored.
"Um...ok. So, as I was walking off the stage I went behind some boxes to put my clothes back on and a couple of the crew members walked over and stood in front. I don't think they knew I was there. One of them started laughing and said to the other one that...like...that they thought I had a micropenis" he bashfully whispered, eyes darting around the library again.
"Dude, what the fuck does that mean?!" I chuckled, unaware of such a term
"Well..this book says it means like I have a super small dick!" Kai shot back, apparently annoyed that I'd laughed
"How big is it, dude? Like, I don't wanna see it...but...like how many centimetres is it?" I flatly responded as I pulled my ruler out of my bag.
Kai simply stared at the ruler, internally debating whether or not to reveal the truth of how small his dick was. After a good 10 seconds, he reached out and pointed to a mark on the ruler. It was in between the 1 and 2cm mark. I didn't dare to react in any other way than nodding slightly. We sat there in awkward silence for a good few seconds. Kai looked me square in the eyes;
"...is...like...is yours bigger than that, dude?" Kai desperately inquired. "Tell the truth, dude, please!"
I nodded, before placing my finger on the 10cm mark, which was a slight exaggeration but not far from the truth. Kai threw his hands up.
"No way! Everyone's gonna see it, dude! I never would have agreed to do it if I knew it was tiny!" Kai breathlessly uttered in barely-restrained panic.
"Dude, don't worry! You'll be long gone before anyone from here sees! And nobody in your new town will know, anyway. It's not like they can even get this channel where they are! And anyway, it'll probably grow when you get older as well" I reasoned back. This seemed to do the trick, as I saw the panic and redness on Kai's face start to dissipate.
"You think so? Like..it'll get bigger?"
"For sure, dude. Everyone goes through growth spurts, don't worry about it, bro" I reasoned. Kai smiled and nodded, seemingly relieved that his best friend was there for him.
"Come on, man. If you start acting like this and reading stuff about dicks people are going to think you're weird! Just forget about it, nobody here will ever find out. Trust me, I'll never tell anyone, ok?" I gently explained, injecting a bit of humour into it and encouraging him to relax.
Kai nodded and shut the book as we stood up to go to class. Just as we stood up the bell rang and we braved the rain to run from the library to our classroom. As we got inside our other 20 or so classmates slowly filed in, most of them slightly soggy from the heavy rain as Mrs. Dunne welcomed everyone into class and told us to take our seats. We sat down, got out our pens and paper and started work. Over the next couple of hours the rain intensified outside and the storm which was rolling in while we were playing handball had now firmly taken hold. It was at the point of recess that Mrs. Dunne explained that we'd be remaining inside for the rest of the day, and during lunch we'd have the choice to either play some games or watch the television. Recess came and went with a number of us playing Twister and other board games, however, the general rowdiness of the class and cramped conditions lead to Mrs. Dunne giving us instructions that during the lunch break we'd only be permitted to watch the television.
Lunch time rolled around and, as the bell rang, we all got up from our seats and went into the storeroom to get our lunches from our bags. As we came back in we could see that Mrs. Dunne had rolled the big television set into the middle of the room, opposite the main entrance to the door making it impossible to see the screen when entering the room or from Mrs. Dunne's desk. We all sat in front of the television as Mrs. Dunne switched it on and started flicking through the channels to see if there was anything suitable to watch, the 10 or so girls huddled around the screen in front and the boys coalescing at the back, apparently more interested in having thumb wars and dead-arm competitions. Almost every channel that she cycled through was either static, news or boring soap operas far outside the scope of interest for 10 year old kids. This went on for a few minutes as all the children started getting bored and fidgeting, and it was at this point that Kai actually put his hand up and asked to go to the toilet. Mrs. Dunne gave him permission as he stood up and left the room. Almost as soon as Kai had left the room Mrs. Dunne finally landed on a channel with a clear signal, a couple of seconds passing before an announcement came on:
"Special announcement: due to unforeseen scheduling conflicts we will be test-airing the final episode of Dragon Run. Enjoy the program"
"Yesss! We get to see the final early!" Kailey excitedly squealed from the front row, one of the girls known to have a major crush on Kai. Kailey was definitely the prettiest girl in the class, almost always wearing long, blonde pigtails and lip gloss. She never missed an opportunity to flirt with Kai, who interestingly never seemed to reciprocate her affection.
"Sweet, this is awesome!" Gabby chimed in, another girl who swooned over Kai. Gabby was definitely the nerd of the class, sporting a mouthful of braces and a faceful of freckles, never seen without her compendium of notes and papers.
"Is Kai even here?" Michelle asked as she turned around and looked for him.
"Nah, he's gone to the bathroom" Kailey responded quickly, seemingly eager to get everyone to be quiet so she could oogle her crush in peace. I knew I had to say something.
"Oh, this sucks. I wanted to watch this with my folks on the weekend, can we switch to something else?" I strongly countered, trying my best to preserve Kai's modesty. The entire class booed me;
"Shut up, we get to see it before anyone else does!" Kailey shot back.
"Yeah, we wanna watch it. Miss, please keep it on!" Brianna, one of the younger girls in the class at 9 years old, also pleaded. Mrs. Dunne nodded.
"Class, this is what we're watching. And besides, there's nothing else on the other channels. Now, I expect all of you to watch this quietly or I'll switch it off immediately. I have a lot of marking to do before the end of the year and I don't want to be disturbed. Do I make myself clear?"
The entire class nodded as the theme music kicked in and Mrs. Dunne sat behind her desk over the other side of the room, unable to see anything other than the back of the television. The theme music stopped and the show began, the first scene being Kai sneaking around the side of the warehouse and breaking in through a semi-opened window.
"Omg, he looks so cute dressed like that" I overheard Kailey whisper to one of the other girls. A few of the girls heard this and just nodded, their eyes fixed on the television.
There was still no sign of Kai who had been out of class now for around 3 minutes. He must have been taking the long way around to the toilets to avoid the pouring rain. I racked my brain as to what to do. Should I get up and shut the TV off? Should I cause a scene and distract everyone? Should I run out and warn Kai? I didn't know what to do, and in my panic I hadn't realised just how early on in the episode the nude scene was. Just as Kai's character had stepped down from the window he'd tripped on the barrel of toxic waste with the chemicals splashing all over him. A few of the girls giggled at his reaction as the special-effect smoke started to rise from his clothes, as if to signal the chemicals were starting to eat through the fabric. Then, it started. Firstly, we all saw Kai rip his top off.
"Oooooh, look at Mr. Universe!" Brianna mockingly yet excitedly whispered. The rest of the girls giggled nervously, eager to let each other know how much they were enjoying it but not wanting to attract the attention of Mrs. Dunne.
"He's so hot, oh, my God" Michelle giddily whispered to Kailey, who just rapidly nodded in agreement.
One of the girls, Abby, started to look quite concerned at where this was going - instead of the giddy excitement the rest of the girls were exhibiting she looked exceedingly worried. In contrast to most of the other girls Abby was quite plain and dumpy, her dark brown hair styled in an outdated bob and large, thick rimmed glasses perched atop a snub nose. I got the distinct impression that she had a heightened sense of empathy for those at risk of bullying as she seemed to be a victim of it herself.
"It's not polite to talk about someone behind their back, you know" she quietly chastised. Michelle and Brianna just turned around to look at her and, almost simultaneously, rolled their eyes.
On the screen, Kai threw his top on the ground as the smoke continued to rise from his jeans, desperately patting them down to try and remedy the effects of the chemicals. As he jumped around like a maniac the girls continued giggling audibly, causing Mrs. Dunno to look up from her marking.
"Girls, this is your first warning. Watch quietly, do you understand?" Mrs. Dunne sternly ordered from across the room. All the girls nodded as they sat bolt upright, all sharing silent smirks with each other as Kai continued jumping up and down. Then, in one smooth move, as he jumped up he tore his jeans off and threw them across the warehouse.
The girls froze, their smirks replaced with open-mouthed shock. Kai still had his underwear on as he hopped around slightly less rapidly, the smoke still rising from the fabric as he continued patting his groin and butt to presumably stop the chemicals from eating through. I noticed that Kailey had raised her hands to her mouth as she stared wide-eyed at the screen, not daring to make a noise lest Mrs. Dunne send her outside. Gabby's wide grin fully revealed her braces as she giddily glanced around at the other girls, her body convulsing with stifled giggles. Brianna, being the youngest and smallest of the girls, tried to lean in closer to the screen, pushing one of the other girls slightly out of the way so as she could get a better view. She made no attempt to look at anything other than the screen, laser-focused on her young classmate in his underwear revealing himself on the television. Suddenly, the door swung open and Kai entered the room having returned from the bathroom, the girls barely registering that he was there in case they missed what they suspected was going to happen on the screen. Kai, surprised at the quietness of the room, inquisitively turned to Mrs. Dunne:
"Miss, what are we watching?" he asked suspiciously.
"Dragon Run. Your final episode, young man. The class is getting a sneak peek! Now go and take a seat" Mrs. Dunne warmly responded, under the impression that he would be flattered that the entire class were so interested in his acting as opposed to what was actually happening on-screen. I saw the colour drain from him as he turned to look at me, a look of total shock and panic etched across his face. His body language immediately shifted from one of carefree confidence to unbridled fear and anxiety. Just as he was about to open his mouth, it happened.
On the screen Kai gave one last jump and ripped his underwear off, throwing them behind him as he stood motionless in the middle of the warehouse. The camera left nothing to the imagination as Kai stood perfectly still, acting in sublime relief at finally removing his acid-ridden clothing. He was right - micropenis was almost too small a description of what afflicted him. His puny, uncircumcised penis extended no more than a single centimetre away from his body, his testicles barely visible and, debatably, not even descended. The most jarring contradiction of the entire scene was not just that his supple, athletic and well-developed body was in stark contrast to his infantile penis, but that he seemed so comfortable in revealing what would be, to most boys, a source of extreme shame and embarrassment. It really came across in his acting that he'd honestly suspected nothing was amiss or irregular with his development - on the contrary it seemed that he was intensely proud of his body and unafraid to reveal it in all its glory. Little did he know that "glorious" was perhaps the least apt description for his extremely underdeveloped genitals. For a few painful seconds of silence the entire class sat there, trying to process what they'd just seen. Even the boys at the back stared at the screen in total shock. The colour, once drained from Kai's face, suddenly returned with vigour and the poor boy flushed as red as a beetroot as he stood there trembling, not knowing where to go or what to say. The girls stared at the screen with a mixture of shock, excitement and lust etched in their faces, the impact of the moment almost too much for them to take in - all the girls, that is, except for Abby. Abby sat there with her hands clasped over her mouth, her eyes betraying the hurt and empathy she must have been feeling for Kai. A few seconds passed until the silence was broken by, of all people, little Brianna.
"It's smaller than this!" she whispered loudly enough to be heard by all the girls in the front, holding up a pencil and pointing to the tiny eraser on the end. All the girls turned in silence to look, before erupting into venomous laughter. Kailey looked straight at Kai, wide-eyed with a toothy grin, and pointed to somewhere outside the classroom:
"I think you came into the wrong class, Kai, the Kindergarten is back there" she chortled.
"Kailey, come on, that's mean. He shouldn't be in Kindergarten. He should be in class 1CM!" Gabby tittered, her face red from both excitement and restraining her urge to cackle in the poor boy's face.
"Huh? I don't get it?" Michelle queried, tilting her head to one said as she looked at Gabby.
"Oh, my God, Shell. CM. C. M. Like, you know, centimetre. So, like, 1 centimetre, duh!" Gabby spat back while pointing directly at Kai's crotch, seemingly annoyed at having to explain what she considered a pretty obvious joke. Michelle looked offended and desperately tried to play it off:
"Oh, no, I mean I knew what you meant! I knew it meant centimetres! I was saying, like, I don't get how it's so small. Like, my little brother is 2 and even his is bigger than that" she clumsily spluttered, as the other girls simply smirked at her trying to wriggle her way out of her own embarrassment. Kailey took the opportunity to join in again.
"Shell, it doesn't matter if you have a small brain. There's someone in here with something even tinier" she playfully purred, simultaneously managing to embarrass both Michelle and Kai. All the girls cracked up again, with the obvious exception of Abby, who remained disturbed by the entire scene:
"Guys, come on. That's enough, he's never done anything to you! Leave him alone!" she pleaded, barely audibly, as if the trauma Kai was feeling was somehow being channelled through her. Mrs. Dunne looked up from her desk.
"Girls, enough. Final warning. No more noise. Kai, go and sit down" she firmly ordered, completely unaware of what was playing on the television and too far away to understand the context of the girls' taunts. Kai, as red as a tomato, robotically shuffled over and sat down next to me staring at the floor. By this stage the scene had moved on and Kai was now wearing the burlap sack as he searched for a way out of the warehouse. Kyle, one of the boys behind us and well-known as the class tough-guy reached over and prodded Kai as the girls turned around to face him:
"Don't worry, dude. If you lose your clothes again you can use this to cover up" he taunted as he handed the humiliated boy a small, folded-up Post-It note no bigger than a few centimetres. Kai simply looked up and took it off him in silence, as if he knew there was no point arguing or fighting back. The whole class knew he had an extreme case of micropenis and nothing he could say or do would change that. As Kai went to put the Post-It note on the floor Michelle saw an opportunity to regain some of her pride and leant over the other girls to pass a small pen lid to him:
"Here you go, Kai. I know it's probably too big but at least if you lose your pants again it'll cover everything up!" she mockingly jeered, as Kai held his hand out and let her drop the pen lid into his palm. The girls all stifled embarrassed laughs as they continued whispering amongst each other, not taking their eyes off Kai. Abby spoke up again:
"You guys are bitches, what's he ever done to you? He can't help it, it's not even that small!". Kailey rolled her eyes again:
"Abby, shut up, as if it isn't. And dude, honestly, why did you film that? You seriously have the tiniest dick ever!" she viciously scolded, as if to purge the anger she felt inside at having a crush on Kai for so long and having those feelings destroyed in 10 seconds at the revelation of his incredibly small boyhood. The rest of the girls turned to her in shock, eyes bugging and mouths agape as if they couldn't believe what they'd just heard.
"Kailey, that's soooo harsh!" Gabby giggled through snorts of laughter. Kailey just turned to her and shrugged;
"It's the truth. I mean, come on. You can't even call that a dick, it looks more like a pimple!" she nonchalantly responded.
"What should we call it then?" Gabby asked in earnest, as if to challenge Kailey to provide a reasonable definition of something rarely seen.
"Oi, babydick, everyone's gonna find out after this you know, right?" hissed Brent, one of the boys at the back.
"Babydick! Oh, my God. That's sooooo your new nickname, dude!" Gabby giddily added, as she turned to Brianna.
"That's such a good name for him, it's like the lamest band name ever! Lil' Babydick!" Kailey guffawed, relishing the opportunity to stick the knife in one more time.
"Yeah, BD! BD, BD, BD!" Brianna added softly, as if to start a chant. The rest of the girls quietly started repeating "BD, BD, BD" barely above the level of a whisper. Mrs. Dunne became suspicious again:
"Girls, why are you turning around? Is there something you'd like to share with everyone?" she queried. The girls turned around in silence but with huge, cheeky grins on all their faces.
"Well, who's going to answer me?" Mrs. Dunne demanded, her voice slightly raised.
"Oh, it's nothing Miss. Just a little joke" Gabby eventually replied, emphasising the word "little".
"Yeah Miss. It's nothing big" Michelle chimed in, The rest of the girls were starting to go red from containing their chortling.
"Nothing big? It certainly seems like something big, madam!" Mrs. Dunne countered, not exactly angry but rather bemused with the cryptic responses.
"Oh, it's definitely nothing big, Miss. We were just having a tiny chat" Kailey playfully yet calmly offered, further pushing the girls to the brink of outright cackling. Mrs. Dunno looked sceptical, but acquiesced.
"But we'll be quiet now, Miss. We're not babies" Brianna smarmily chimed in with.
"Well, let's lower the volume and face the front please girls. I want you all to watch the rest of the show in silence, alright? We don't want you all going into year 7 with an underdeveloped sense of maturity, do we?"
The girls all stifled another giggle as they bit their lips and dared not look at each other. Michelle affirmed Mrs. Dunne's instructions:
"Of course not, Miss. We don't want anything to be underdeveloped!"
Mrs. Dunne went and sat back down as the class started to settle down and watch the rest of the episode. Every now and then the girls would sneak a peek at Kai and begin excitedly whispering to each other - Kai simply sat there stony-faced as he watched himself run around the town covered only by a burlap sack, dreading the moment when the episode finished and the reality of the entire school finding out about his micropenis while he was still in town sank in. I noticed Abby looking at him from across the room and, when their eyes met, mouthing "I'm sorry!" This just seemed to upset Kai more. I tried to reason with him:
"Sorry, dude. I tried to get them to turn it off but they wouldn't. You only have a week left before you never have to see anyone from here again, ok?" I softly whispered as I patted his back. He just nodded silently and gave me a small smile. And so, for the next 20 minutes or so, we sat there silently watching the rest of the show. About 5 minutes before lunch ended the rain stopped, the clouds parted and slivers of sunlight began to break through the haze. Normally, this would be cause for celebration for Kai, but he knew that every minute spent outside the classroom meant the uncovering of his secret shame. The episode ended and the credits began to roll as Mrs. Dunne walked over and started to wheel the television back into the storeroom.
"Ok, class. For the remainder of the day you can play outside. Come back in at 3pm to get your bags!" Mrs. Dunne instructed as everyone stood up.
Kai and I stood up along with everyone else and waited for the room to clear. The girls made a beeline for the door, cheekily chanting "BD, BD, BD" on their way past Kai, whereas the boys simply walked by laughing. The room emptied with the exception of myself, Kai and, curiously, Abby. She walked over to us.
"Kai, those girls are real bitches. Don't worry about them, I won't say anything to anyone, ok?" she warmly offered, her eyes full of compassion and sincerity. You could tell she really felt bad for the poor boy, and was doing her best to support him. Kai just nodded and smiled back.
"And anyway, I think it looks cute. Like a little earring" she added with a sympathetic smile.
Kai didn't smile this time. He just nodded, blankly, as it dawned on Abby what she'd just said.
"Oh...I mean...Sorry, I didn't mean little...I just meant...I was trying to say 'good things come in small packages'" she managed to stammer out in desperation, eager to avoid embarrassing him any further. It dawned on her almost immediately that she'd said "small". Kai just stared at her - not with anger, but with resignation that he would be defined, for the next week at least, as nothing more than a boy with an extraordinarily small dick.
"Not small! Sorry! I don't know what I'm trying to say, I just wanted to let you know it looks...you know...cute and...umm....yeah, cute! And even though it's...um....kinda...like not as big...or as long...or...like" she continued desperately stammering her way through a painful apology, until she was interrupted by a voice from the window. It was Kailey eavesdropping.
"You're trying to say 'he has a babydick!'" came Kailey's inevitable insult, which would be echoed throughout the school for the final week. Kai looked crushed.
"Piss off! Bitch!" Abby retorted as she moved closer and gave Kai a big hug.
"Don't listen to her, I'll be your friend even if you do have...well...you know. I won't say it" Abby said as gently as she could. Kai just nodded and smiled back, finally accepting that Abby was just trying to help him feel a modicum of warmth after what must have been the most embarrassing moment of his life so far.
And with that, we all walked out to the playground, ready to support Kai through what would become the most humiliating week of his young life.