Life of humiliation
Posted: Thu Mar 24, 2022 6:36 am
I was unfortunately cursed/blessed with a medically diagnosed micropenis. My dr. didn't diagnose me at birth like most of the other .06% of guys with the same issue. She told my mom that although I was abnormally small she had hope that it would grow as I aged. She did talk to my mom abut testosterone but mom had the same hope and wasn't fond of the idea. so skip forward and me taking over my own bathing around 8 or so, meaning after that point mom didn't see me in bath again until the year i got my official diagnosis at 14. there was an incident that i wont go into great detail on but it revealed to her that I hadn't grown. That was my first experience of humiliation over it. she actually laughed when she found out. she apologized so much saying it caught her off guard. She took me to my new doctor and although there was no laughter having my female dr and mom looking at my and hearing her say it was a micropenis was humiliating. After that it was like the universe decided since I had experienced embarrassment already it was time for more. On top of having a micro, i was a late bloomer to puberty. That didn't happen til 17. So the other incidents that happened in those next few years were very humiliating. I realized after a few times of being laughed at that I enjoyed it for some reason. and started trying to find ways to make it happen by about 18 and have been ever since. I have quite a few real experiences of ENM/Sph I will share if anyone is interested. I also have a lot of good fiction idea/writing prompts for ENM involving alot of sph, I'm just not a great writer so if anyone wants to discuss ideas I'm game. I am at peace with my body now as an adult and embrace the humiliation of what it is so dont think I am sad or mopey about it. If anyone wants to hear more let me know.