What brought you here? How long have you had this kink? Have you always, or did you have an experience?

[RaccoonBatteryStaple]

I was kinda bullied in school. Nothing ever too serious but kids judged me very harshly. I say that simply now but as kid everything was magnified by like 100 where any awkward or embarrassing moment felt devastating. Maybe its like s&m stuff where this is a way of rewriting those situations and anxieties to take control of them

This.

And if not to take control of them, at least explore them.

[PantsDownFun]

I know this is an old topic, but thank you for bringing this up and I couldn't agree more. To me, the age is just there to make the story make sense. I really like "naked in school" scenarios because it leaves the girl naked in front of people she has known for a while, and will have to see everyday after. It just wouldn't make sense for her to be in her twenties like me.

I'm glad you brought this up. Most of my stories are either true stories (I've posted a few so far) or inspired by what I call "almost events" (which I'm going to start posting soon), things that didn't happen, but for a few small changes could have happened. I'm not fantasizing about doing anything involving a child, I'm fantasizing about what it would have been like for me, back then, had things been different. Of course I don't want to pull the shorts off of a 13 year old boy, I want to know what it would have felt like if, when I was 14, I had actually done it like I wanted to. Of course I don't want a 17 year old boy to touch my penis, I want to know what it would have felt like when I was 17 and confused and there be a situation where he could have without me admitting to being gay yet.
I also come up with scenarios involving adults, college students are great for people who still get up to childish shenanigans without actually being children, fetish parties have some opportunities to explore how ENM works in a group of people who typically aren't embarrassed by nudity (I actually have both a true story and an almost true story that I am playing around with how to write right now), hell, my doctor is cute and gay, I might even be able to come up with some medical ENM. It's about the embarrassment, even when I go into intimate details about genitals, it's more about the fact that someone would be embarrassed at the thought of other people knowing that level of detail about what their genitals look like than the genitals themselves (though, I won't lie, for some of my more "age appropriate" stories, it's also about the genitals themselves). My own embarrassment, from my real-life experiences, stemmed from the knowledge that people now knew exactly what my penis looked like, and I project that onto my characters.
How I got here... I don't know if I was always this way or if I grew into it, but I can definitely identify the event that solidified it into something inevitable, it's this story here:
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It was a few years later that I had it become inevitable that I'd enjoy even more witnessing (or better yet inflicting) ENM the first time I saw the look of horror and embarrassment on a friend's face when I pulled his underwear down, it is what Inside Out would call a "core memory". I posted that one here:
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[RaccoonBatteryStaple]

Most of my stories are either true stories (I've posted a few so far) or inspired by what I call "almost events" (which I'm going to start posting soon), things that didn't happen, but for a few small changes could have happened. I'm not fantasizing about doing anything involving a child, I'm fantasizing about what it would have been like for me, back then, had things been different.

Yes, this. And for me, those fantasies started shortly after those "almost events" happened at that age and have stayed with me ever since.

fetish parties have some opportunities to explore how ENM works in a group of people

That would be so interesting... Going to a party where you know ahead of time it's a scene that everyone there is in on and somebody is going to eventually pants you but not who or when.

it's more about the fact that someone would be embarrassed at the thought of other people knowing that level of detail about what their genitals look like than the genitals themselves (though, I won't lie, for some of my more "age appropriate" stories, it's also about the genitals themselves). My own embarrassment, from my real-life experiences, stemmed from the knowledge that people now knew exactly what my penis looked like, and I project that onto my characters.

The obtaining that intimate knowledge, but also the implication of being judged by said knowledge. Not to the point of active humiliation -- I'm not into that -- but more at a mild level of knowing a person is a grower/shower, is above/below average, has a weird circumcision scar or prominent birthmark, stuff like that.

[Amberspurts]

I think my kink originated with being forcefully stripped and touched early in puberty, really kinda shook up my experiences early on. That and going to a really strict church that shamed girls constantly so I couldn't admit I wanted to be naked and exposed, requiring all my fantasies to involve being tricked or forced.

[RaccoonBatteryStaple]

I think my kink originated with being forcefully stripped and touched early in puberty, really kinda shook up my experiences early on. That and going to a really strict church that shamed girls constantly so I couldn't admit I wanted to be naked and exposed, requiring all my fantasies to involve being tricked or forced.

Do you think that reinforcement of that exposure and touching being taboo helped heighten the experience and reinforce it as a kink?